Life is for Giving

Since my last post I have consciously been trying to come up with my next post... How did that go for me? Well, not so good. Every time I thought of something to write about, it felt forced, it felt like I had to 'think' about what to say, until today.

I am in a group, it is truly a mastermind group, we are reading a book , 'A Happy Pocket Full of Money.' When I first started reading the book, I thought, "Oh my word!" Having said that, I am not a quitter and I picked the book back up, became more involved in the book club. I'm glad I did. The chapter we'll cover today is about giving. This is something I think about a lot.

I'm going to back up a bit. I think you will agree this blog has become more than just a blog to me, it has become therapy. I spill my heart out, disclose things that most people would keep locked away. I'm also going to admit, that in writing, I don't always like the person I am. No, the person I was. Each one of these posts has changed me. In reflecting, I realized a lot and not all of that, I realized, was great. But, I also realized, after writing, I am great and no matter what I did, God loves me.

"There is nothing you could ever do that would change the way God feels about you."

John Burke

So, on with the post. This week's chapter was about purpose & giving. Everyone in the book-club was focused on purpose, I honed in on giving. Lately, I think about how selfish I am over silly little things, I want that piece of pizza or I want that piece of chicken... how petty. I don't take that piece of pizza or that piece of chicken, but what does that say about me when I think it?

This makes me cry. I do give, I give a lot. Not that I am justifying these thoughts or tooting my horn about how 'giving' I am, but I am reflecting. I take care of my husband everyday. I buy all the groceries. I purchase all of our Neora products. I make sure all the bills get paid. I clean the house. I cook all the meals, blah, blah, blah... Do these things make me less selfish? Maybe selfish is the wrong word. self·ish /ˈselfiSH/

1. (of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for others; concerned chiefly with one's own personal profit or pleasure.

Nope, I am not selfish., that is not me at all... What is the word? selfish

Opposite 1. unselfish - willing to put the needs or wishes of others before one's own. 2. selfless - concerned more with the needs and wishes of others than with one's own; unselfish. 3. altruistic - showing a disinterested and selfless concern for the well-being of others; unselfish. 4. considerate - careful not to cause inconvenience or hurt to others.

Ah, I think my word is 'considerate'. By being considerate, I am careful & thoughtful as to not hurt anyone's feelings. It doesn't mean from time to time that I don't have a selfish thought, I think as man we are all neutral selfish.

Neutral selfishness: "Psychologists say, Neutral selfishness includes looking after your own well-being in ways that do not directly and substantially involve other people," If you're a living, breathing, yearning human being, you've been neutrally selfish at least a couple times today.

Where does this lead me? Once again, I was not happy with my selfish (neutral selfish) thoughts when I started writing. But I realized those thoughts do not make me selfish, they make me human..

I think I've said this before, "Life is tough." Stop beating yourself up and breathe. It is ok to love you as you love those around you. You are just as important as anyone else. Never forget that .

"You are more important than you realize"